The science of silence in emotional abuse

Admit it. No one in this fallen world escapes from emotional abuse regardless on its category.

Even Jesus constantly gets emotional abuse. In fact, He is the only man in this world who ever lived that get the most extreme emotional abuse beyond our imagination.

Newsflash: Even God himself  suffered from emotional abuse by His fellow children, His own greatest creation, people who He love so much.

So, there is no way human like us escapes from emotional abuse.

Dr. Gregory L. Jantz noted 13 things on the damaging effects of emotional abuse in his book, Healing The Scars Of Emotional Abuse.

1. When you view life as unstable, anxiety, tension and fear result.

2. When you are constantly vigilant to the behaviour of others, hypersensitivity and hostility result.

3. When you learn to second-guess yourself, confusion and feelings of disconnection result.

4. When nothing you do ever seems to be right, insecurity, guilt and shame result.

5. When others tell you that you are always wrong, indecision and inaction result.

6. When you stop having the energy to fight it all, apathy and depression result.

7. When you have finally had it, rage results.

8. When you never seem to receive fairness, justice is all you think about.

9. When you have been hurt by those you love, love is viewed as a risk.

10. When living is painful, addictions are acceptable because they numb the pain.

11. When the mind is a jumble of emotional chaos, the body and its system break down.

12. When your inner emotion turmoil produces outer stress, your current relationships are endangered.

13. When you can’t control your negative emotions, you become the very person you hate.

  Healing The Scars Of Emotional Abuse (revised edition), pg 32.

One thing that I have learned the best is this:

The greatest instrument used by Satan to go against you is not lust, not anger, not jealousy, not sloth, not gluttony, not anxiety, but emotional abuse. Emotional abuse created a monster inside us and that is the greatest instrument used to break our relationship with God. Emotional abuse is the root of all sins, a vicious cycle that kept us in a bondage of condemnation.

So, you wonder why the people that we love or know turn to be an abuser, or became a sarcastic person with a flaming tongue, or take drugs, or run away from home, or became a gay and lesbian, or made a change on their sexual gender, or became a hostile person, or add up 200 pounds of weight, or turn to be Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde.

Why children nowadays always screams out ‘I HATE YOU SO MUCH!!!’ to their parents?

Think about it. There is only one answer.


The meaning of Easter Sunday

He was risen from the dead and conquered death, He was ascended into Heaven and is seated at the right hand of the Father, He is Our LORD Jesus Christ whose body and blood will and surely will save us from our sins and the penalty of death.

Dear Lord,

Thank you for your love and blessing upon us. We are unworthy and unclean. But You our LORD God of Salvation, you share your bread with sinners, cover us with Thy precious blood and call us at the hour of our death. Thank you for your merciful way of showing your Godly love towards us. Jesus Christ, you are a Good Shepherd and demonstrated your great love for us, in that while we were yet sinners, You died for us so that we will break free from our bondage of sin and live the eternal life with You our LORD God Almighty. Thank you again. Alleluia Alleluia God is risen! Praise The LORD forever and ever.


Have a blessed Easter Sunday to everyone.

Passion of Christ

On this day, He was crucified albeit he is sinless.

He did no harm but was put to death.

He spreads love but was betrayed with a kiss.

He has spoken the truth yet was punished without mercy because of truth.

Out of all the pain and lost, still He cried out loud “Father, please forgive them for they do not know what they are doing!”

Humble, meek and full of love is who you are Our LORD God Almighty.

Dear LORD,

Thank you for sending your only son Jesus Christ to die on the cross for our sins. The journey has never been easy and full of tribulation and lost, thus show us the way of Your path so that we can be humble, meek and full of God’s love just like our Lord Jesus Christ. Cover us with Thy precious body and blood. Thank you for saving us from our sins. Thank you for building the bridge to cover the gap between us human and God because of our sins. May we live in peace with all men in God’s name and live in peace with You our LORD God. Thank you Lord. We ask this in Jesus name, Amen.

Have a blessed Good Friday to everyone.

An uneven line

Found these drawings.

I drew these when I was admitted at the Slim River Hospital due to an acute asthma attack.

I was so bored and the only thing that I can do is by drawing albeit that my right hand is connected to the cord for drip.

My hand may be injured but I don’t care.

These are the collection of several drawings that I drew when I was at the hospital.

I was annoyed by the patient next bed so I imagined to have a dog chewed her slowly or hit her with my imaginary car:

The other night I dreamt a lion came to visit me, looking at me while licking his mouth. I was on my bed and he stares at me right into his eyes. Boy this is a one hungry, messy lion. Suddenly I heard a laugh. I opened my eyes. Bad dream of a lion wanted to eat me. I looked at the patient next bed. She was laughing while sleeping. I was….zombie?

I drew this and imagined that the lion would visit her instead. But I’m sure the lion won’t lick his mouth while looking at her. Instead will give this stare at her:

Spending few days in the hospital was not easy. I was down. Knowing that I am in a bondage of a sickness, I searched for a comfort for my spirit. Thus, in the middle of the night with the help of a little light, I drew Him.

And till this day, this drawing of mine gives me a some kind of unknown strength whenever I am sick.

The drawing is a mixture of a sketch and line up with a drawing pen.

If you notice, all of the drawings are not in line or uneven. I admit it, it is not beautiful or perfect. Oh well, that’s the drawing of a person who has this in her hand:

And I am amazed by those whom are cripple yet can draw a perfect masterpiece.

I may understand a little about them now. Pain is not an excuse to say that you can’t.

Thank you Lord.